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linoholic · 7 years ago

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Poly!Wonpil/Sana

Requested: anon asked: hey!!!! I really love your writing alot, and I've been reading your stuff for a while. May I request a poly sana and wonpil scenario? I know it sounds weird, but I love day6/twice interactions and I've seen cute moments together :')

Pairing: Day6 Wonpil x Twice Sana x Reader

Genre: college!au

Warnings: it’s like pg13? unedited

A million years later and it is done. No lie, I rewrote this like 500 times because I was never happy with it. I love these two so much considering they are my biases and all and I really didn’t do them justice. (Also thank you anon for giving me this ship, as if I could be in a poly relationship these two would be my first choice)

You have been best friends with Sana for a few years now

Ever since she transferred into your class in highschool and you were put in charge of showing her around

You immediately got along like a house on fire once you realises you had many things in common

One of which was the fact that you were both the biggest flirts

You were already known as the school’s flirt

Nobody was safe: not your friends, other students, not even the lunch ladies

On outings with your friends you were always the one to order everything as a you always got free food and discounts with just a flash of your charming smile and honeyed words

You even got caught flirting with inanimate objects multiple times, something you shamelessly admit

Sometimes people labelled you with not so nice things, but most people knew that you had no ill intentions

It just came naturally and you enjoyed seeing people flustered, finding it adorable

And your compliments were never fake either

And then when Sana came along, you were ecstatic

Because as much as you loced seeing people all blushy, Sana flirted with you as much as ypu did her and it was a nice change of pace

Your friends didn’t enjoy it as much the two of you often teamed up with each other

Especially Momo and Mina, who couldn’t even pretend they didn’t understand anymore as Sana would just fire the cheesiest lines in Japanese at them

High school quickly passed by and soon it was time for the next part of your lives

Thankfully you and Sana had aced your college entrance exams and managed to snag places at the same one, which made you both real happy

And you were especially happy, as not only did it mean upu wouldn’t be separated from your bestie, but also your big time crush

Yes, you had done the cliche falling for your best friend

Not that it was easy to tell considering you still flirted with everything that moved and even didn’t move

But in between the smooches on your friends cheeks and the extra portions at lunch, you could be found with your head in your hands staring at the girl with literal heart eyes

Never one to beat around the bush, you decided that as soon as you had both settled into your respective dorms you would ask her out

And ask her out you did

During your first movie night in a dorm instead of at one of your houses, you were sniggled up to each other when you just spontaneously asked her on a date, to which she happily jumped into your arms with a ‘yes’

Or at least, that’s the scene you had imagined in your head

In reality you kept silent, subtlely glancing at Sana as the movie played, too scared to make a move

Not that you would ever admit to being scared of course; no, you were just waiting for the right moment

It was nearing the end of the movie when you finally got the courage to do something

A scene played on the tv that caused Sana to burst out laughing and looking at her so happy caused you heart to do flips

And it was at that moment you knew you had really fallen hard for her and that you would be yourself up if you let the chance to make her yours go

And the flirty part of you couldn’t let the opportunity to be cliche and cheest go, and so pretending to yawn, you stretch you arms up before letting them come to a rest behind Sana

In turn, the girl looks up at you, her pretty eyes widened in surprise and you could see her ears start to turn red

This gives you more courage and you smile softly down at her, squeezing her shoulder before pulling her in close to you

Neither of you really ask the other out, you’re already so close that to the two of you don’t really find the need to define anything

But things are definitely different between the two of you after that night

Which is pretty obvious considering that, well, kisses are a lot less platonic that the skinship you usually shared with your friends

It takes everyone a while to catch onto the change in your relationship considering you and Sana act basically exactly the same as you did when you were just friends

They don’t realise that dates are actual dates as the two of you always went out together prior

And neither of you have let go of your flirty natures

You still team up to make people flustered

In fact it was only when you absentmindedly call Sana you girlfriend in front of everyone

At first they didn’t catch on considering you were always teasingly calling people your boyfriend or girlfriend

But they definitely caught on when Sana turnes to you all excited and planted a big one on our lips

She couldn’t stop the butterflies in her stomach or the grin on her face as you called her your girlfriend sincerely

After you had officially come out as a thing, you quickly became seen as one of the campus’ power couples

Not only were you both total visuals, but everybody envied your relationship

They loved the way you acted adorable with each other, they way you looked after each other, and the way you trusted each other completely

Because with the personalities you both had, people though jealousy would be inevitable what with the constant flirting with anything and everything

But you and Sana understood each other and were very open with your feelings

If either of you thought literally anything good or bad, you would talk it out and figure things out

Communication was key for the both of you

Which is how Wonpil came into the relationship

It all started during a date between you and Sana

One of your mutual friends, Jae, had convinced you to check out his band Day6 at one of the gigs they were playing and you and Sana had agreed, deciding to make a date of it while you were at it

And so dressed up nicely, you walked hand in hand to the venue, one of the nicer bars in town

Throughout the night you and Sana had a drink or two and rocked along to the music

Throughout the night though, one of the band members catch your eye

The cutie playing the keyboard

Not only do you think he is gorgeous, but his voice sends shivers up your spine

When you point this out to Sana, she nods quickly, her head almost falling off of her shoulders

Apparently he had caught her eye too and for the rest of the night the two of you pay extra attention to him, giggling together when he looks up and catches your eye only to look back at his keyboard blushing when you wink at him

And the two of you find his expression when said keyboard suddenly drops a bit absolutely adorable

Sadly though, the night quickly comes to an end and you and Sana head back to the dorms high of the music and atmosphere

The next day you message Jae to tell him how good you thought he and the band were and after bragging a bit, he invites you and Sana along to one of their practices to which you quickly agree

As it turns out their next practice was that evening

Your girlfriend is practically skipping beside you as you make you way to the music building

Finally managing to navigate the halls, you arrive at the specified room and knock with one hand, your other carrying a few pizza boxes (a good way to kickstart friendship you found out)

Jae is the one to answer the door, ushering you and Sana into the room while calling out for the guys to come meet you

That’s when you meet Sungjin, Young K (or Brian, you aren’t quite sure) and Dowoon

They quickly make you and Sana feel welcome, and thank you for the pizza which you all quickly start digging into

You start to wonder where the cute keyboard player is when suddenly said man rushes into the room, panting slightly and running a hand through his hair as he apologises for being late

You and Sana immediately meet each others eyes and small smiles appear on both of your faces

“Yo Wonpil, this is y/n and their girlfriend Sana” Jae introduces around a slice of pizza

Wonpil says a hello as he is dumping his bag in some corner of the room, but immediately becomes silent as he turns around and catches sight of the two of you

Memories from the previous nights gig return to his mind and he can’t stop the tips of his ears from turning red

His blush only gets worse as they night goes on

You and Sana clap and dance along as they practice different songs, complimenting the group constantly

But the two of you can’t help but pay extra attention to Wonpil

The rest of the band finds it hilarious when you sit either side of the boy asking about music causing Wonpil to become a flustered mess at the close proximity

And everyone practically dies when Sana quite innocently comments on how quickly Wonpil’s fingers move across the keys

At that moment you are practically a puddle on the floor, dead from the innuendo, Wonpils blush and Sana’s adorably confused face

Over time you and Sana become pretty good friends with the band, supporting them at gigs and studying with the members often as college students do

You and Sana don’t let up on your flirting with Wonpil either

If anything, it gets more intense as the two of you stop flirting as much with other people and instead focus your attention on him

One of your friends, Jihyo, points this out one day as your hanging out at her dorm

At first you dismiss he idea that it’s anything more than innocent flirting like your usual, giving the excuse that most others are used to it and so don’t give reactions like his anymore

But the thought sticks in your mind

So much so that one day you are in your dorm with Sana, sat on your couch making out when you suddenly think ‘I wonder what it would be like to kiss Wonpil like thisx

You immediately feel guilty for even thinking that, especially in the middle of kissing your girlfriend and so you break away from Sana, leaving her to look confused when she sees your troubled face

But you hate keeping stuff from her, and so instead of brushing it off you tell her about it

Much to your surprise she doesn’t get angry, or jealous or any of the emotions you would expect

Instead she lights up and says “you too?”

Which prompts a heart to heart throughout which you talk about feelings and whatnot

You are both 100% sure that you love each other still, but you are also sure that you both fancy Wonpil at this point

A quick internet search helps stop your worries though as you read up on polyamory and by the end of it you are both discussing about how your feelings are valid and how out of all the different type of nonmonogamous relationships and polyamory, the stuff you both feel points to wanting to make Wonpil the third in your relationship

By the end of the night, instead of a heated argument like you kind of expected, you instead start debating on what you think Wonpil kisses like

(Sana is sure he is a cute, shy kisser whereas you are sure he is real passionate)

You flirting with Wonpil becomes a lot different after that

It’s a little more serious, less greasy as you re trying to figure out whether his reactions are beause he may fancy you and Sana as well, or if it is purely his natural reaction to any attention

You didn’t want to just jump into deep water, so to speak

After all, getting into a relationship is a pretty complicated thing, let alone getting in one that includes more than one other person

But you didn't have to wait too long

As Wonpil told Dowoon all about his ever growing feelings for you and your girlfriend

And Dowoon told Jae, who told Jimin, who told Bambam, who told Chan, who told Jihyo

Which ended up with Jihyo gatecrashing one of your dates, almost skipping in excitement

You see, Sana had confided in Jihyo about everything (with your consent of course)

And so of course Jihyo is going to get excited when she hears that her friends' crushes are returned

So after trying to burst out squealing in happiness in the middle of a busy coffee shop, the three of you brainstorm when and how to confess

It comes to your mind that Day6 would be performing at the upcoming charity fair that the school was putting on

The fair would be happening in the evening and your friend’s Nayeon and Woojin were a part of the team organising it and so you knew that it would be one of those really aesthetic fairs you see pictures of on pinterest

And what place for a better first date?

Mentioning this to Sana you come up with a plan and for the next couple of weeks, the two of you are unusually giddy from nervousness and excitement

But with the both of you caught up in wanting to give Wonpil the confession and (hopefully) first date he deserves, you get caught up in your own world together and sort of neglect your friends

Of course, most of them are up to date with all the gossip and so understand why, but poor Wonpil has no idea

Despite constantly blushing when you and Sana were around and the following teasing from his friends, he really enjoyed your company

Like, really enjoyed your company

And so when you started avoiding him, started coming to band practice less, started flirting with him less, he was a little heartbroken

He felt like the thing the three of you had going was taken more seriously by him than it was by you and Sana; that he had misinterpreted it all; that you had moved on from him

And so while for two weeks you and Sana were practically sparkling because you were so excited, Wonpil was the complete opposite

He walked around with a pout constantly on his face

The boys didn’t know whether to laugh because they knew he was wrong, tease him for acting like a baby, coo at how adorable he looks or cry along and baby him, because nobody likes a sad Wonpil

Finally the day of the fair came and you and Sana were buzzing, running round to get things and yourselves ready

Wonpil was also buzzing; his sadness had been pushed aside briefly to make way for the hype of getting to perform for a large crowd

The band was performing pretty early into the evening which gave you and Sana time to roam around and get your bearings, brainstorming what you think Wonpil would like to do

Finally the time came for their stage and you and Sana managed to squeeze in right in front of the small stage that had been put together for the evening

“What’s up guys! We’re Day6 and we’re going to perform a few songs for you this fine evening, so feel free to get hyped up and go crazy! First up is ‘What Can I Do’, we hope you enjoy,” Jae introduces, and with that the music starts

It doesn’t take long for your fellow college students to get hyped up

Those that have seen the band or listened to them on soundcloud shout along to the lyrics (mind you, that’s a lot considering how popular Day6 are on campus and around town)

You and Sana are one of many doing just that, your joined hands up in the air as you sing along with the guys

(One of the perks of joining them at practice constantly is that you know their music pretty well)

Day6 end up playing four songs, not including the encore, and sooner than everyone would have liked they are thanking everyone and walking off stage, making way for the techies to set up ready for the next act

As much as you and Sana would have loved to hear them play more, you also are glad that it is finally over as it means the time has come for your plan to be put into action

Sana grabs your hand and pulls you through the crowd to ‘backstage’, quickly catching sight of the guys and heading over

After a quick conversation and “you did amazingly”s, you and your girlfriend turn to face Wonpil

And your breath catches in your throat when you properly look at him

He has sweat rolling down from the hot evening and jamming out so much, his hair is messed up from where he had been running his hands through it, and he was wearing sinfully skinny jeans, a shirt with the top few buttons undone and a choker round his neck

To sum it up; Wonpil looked hot af

You knew Sana thought this too as her hold on your hand suddenly got a lot lighter

After a couple of moments just admiring his beauty, so pull yourself together and clear your throat, pulling Sana close beside you so you are both looking at Wonpil, who looks back at you both with a confused look marring his face

It doesn’t stay that way for long though

“So, as you know, Sana is my girlfriend. And we have an amazing relationship. Mainly because we have amazing communication. And through that communication we discovered something. And that is that we both really like you and so after a lot of talking and researching we decided that it wasn’t merely a crush or anything and so. Well, this is us asking if you would want to go on a date. With both of us. Tonight,” you say as Sana pulls out a bouquet (that Sungjin discreetly handed over) and holds it out to Wonpil

Speaking of the guy, Wonpils face goes through a variety of emotions as you talk, settling on shock as he takes in that you just confessed to him

Needless to say, Wonpil accepts and with that the three of you are off on your first date

Wonpil is very shy at first, not sure on how to act but you and Sana are quick to notice and stand either side of him hand in hand, making sure to make him the centre of attention as you walk through the fair, playing games, winning him things, buying him food and such

And it is same for the dates that follow, which there are plenty of

It isn’t long before you are both officially calling Wonpil your boyfriend, much to the surprise and delight of everyone

Because your poly relationship is accepted by everyone because nobody dislikes any of you alone, let alone together

Your friends are especially accepting of it, glad that now the three of you have each other hopefully you will smother each other in love and affection and not them (ha they thought)

It is kind of true though

Each one of you are quite needy for love and attention and so none of you are ever starved of that, all of you always happy to snuggle or something

Usually you just end up in a puddle, none of you a set big spoon or little spoon

Though in the beginning of the relationship Wonpil ends up the center of it all as you and Sana are well aware that sometimes he feels a little like an outsider intruding

He quickly forgets those thoughts when one of you pull him in for a long kiss though

Speaking of kisses, both Sana and you were delighted to find that you were both right in your speculations, as it turns out that Wonpil is very diverse when it comes to kissing

He will give you and Sana little pecks on the forehead as a hello, soft open mouthed butterfly kisses on your stomachs when you’re cuddling, sweet, long kisses when he is feeling romantic and simple hot and heavy make out sessions when one of you is feeling stressed, or he is high of adrenaline from performing

This is something Sana loves as she is a big fan of kisses no matter the type (and she is very good at it herself as well)

It’s very rare to see the three of you apart, and you can often be found at each others places

Usually Wonpil drags you into a cuddle/nap session, though sometimes you can be found studying, other times you will be doing, well, exercising as Sana puts it

You really love making Wonpil and Sana sing for you, if you’re picking up what I’m putting down

And you’re always sleeping round each others, usually Sana’s as she has the biggest bed considering she lives in an apartement

You love waking up to see your boyfriend and girlfriend cuddled up with adorably messy hair

Just because you are in a relationship doesn’t stop you and Sana from flirting with Wonpil

You just love his flustered face too much to not do so

Though he slowly starts learning your ways and every now and then will say or do something that will get you blushing ever so cutely

None of you ever really cook, usually buying takeaway or sweet talking your friends into buying food for you, but sometimes you and Wonpil will attempt to cook some Japanese dishes for Sana because she might not admit it but you both know she gets homesick sometimes

(Momo and Mina are on speed dial when you do this just in case)

Usually you end up doing the cooking while Wonpil backhugs you, causing the two of you to waddle around the kitchen

When Sana comes home to find her favourite dishes from back in Osaka on the table she almost sheds a few tears, bringing you and Wonpil into a hug that lasts forever

Sana often starts speaking in Japanese whenever she is really happy or excited, leaving you and Wonpil standing there in confusion

She also calls you petnames in Japanese that Momo and Mina refuse to translate for you, claiming they are too cheesy or too naughty for them to repeat

You and Sana are Day6′s biggest fans, and you can always be found screaming in the crowds of any shows they do

Well, even in the practice room you will be hyping them up

And neither of you can get enough of your boyfriends voice, often getting him to sing for you

Sometimes the two of them join up to do a duet and serenade you which gets you soft every time

Which is the perfect way to describe your relationship; soft

Everybody is jealous of it, and sometimes you join people in their questioning of it

Because how did you end up with two of the kindest, nicest, most talented (and prettiest) people on Earth?

spoiler: it’s because you are also one of those people

yo what are endings and how do I do them

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penaimaji · 3 years ago

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Pasangan itu Saling Berpengaruh

Sudah lewat satu tahun, ada pengaruh besar dari pasangan yang aku rasakan antara sebelum dan sesudah menikah, yaitu tidak terlalu reaktif

Di tempat kerja sebelumnya, aku mungkin terkesan kritis, vokal dan reaktif. Aku selalu memberi masukan dan saran, meski tujuanku baik, sering juga disalahpahami. Kalau bahasa suroboyoan nya, sek cilik wes ngelamak wkwk. Kalau kata teman dekatku, kadang2 argumenku ini terlalu to the point, sehingga membuat orang lain yang mendengar merasa terintimidasi

Bahkan kebiasaan di kampus dulu, aku terlalu berani untuk meminta hak/keadilan, tanpa melihat siapa yang sedang aku hadapi. Sempat juga cekcok dengan pegawai perpustakaan yang memblokir kartu tanda mahasiswaku selama satu semester terakhir saat proses skripsi, karena aku ketahuan membawa KTM teman ketika di perpustakaan

Jujur saja, aku tidak tahu menahu soal KTM yang ternyata tidak boleh dipinjam orang lain. Karena selama ini tidak ada peraturan hitam di atas putih. Aku bahkan sudah tamat membaca tatib dan katalog kampus

Saat itu, aku meminta bukti mana yang merupakan peraturan secara tertulis pada petugas perpustakaan. Saat itu, petugas yang bersangkutan tidak bisa menjawab, ia hanya bilang kalau peraturan sudah sering diumumkan di speaker setiap pagi

Tapi aku mengatakan, tidak semua mahasiswa datang ke perpustakaan pagi-pagi, bagaimana bisa tahu peraturannya? Aku dibilang minim literasi, padahal di buku pedoman kampus juga tidak ada peraturan tersebut. Rasanya kesal. Kalau tidak sedang skripsi, mungkin bukan jadi masalah buatku. Namun, saat itu aku sedang menjalani masa hectic skripsi

Setelah kejadian tersebut, kulihat terpampang di mading depan perpustakaan tertulis peraturan-peraturan yang sudah dilengkapi kop surat, cap dan tanda tangan kepala. Aku tersenyum kecil dan bergumam, ternyata berguna juga aku protes kemarin wkwk

Ada banyak cerita, yang mungkin menurut orang lain aku terlalu berani. Namun semenjak menikah, rasanya lebih berhati-hati. Tidak mudah angkat suara, atau berkomentar

Beberapa hari yang lalu, aku kesal ketika antri di RSUD; yang merupakan satu-satunya rumah sakit di daerah tempat tinggalku. Suami sudah mengambil urutan awal, tapi tidak dipanggil di poli, sampai tersisa tiga pasien

Aku yang sudah dongkol rasanya ingin marah, karena sebelumnya suamiku sudah kusuruh bertanya ke petugas poli anak, kenapa nama anakku ini belum dipanggil. Katanya disuruh sabar wkwkwk hash, mana gak jelas juga antriannya. Asli, buruk banget pelayanannya sekelas RSUD. Aku sudah bersiap-siap mencari kontak pengaduan pelayanan RS ini

Kaya uda nggak bisa berkata-kata lagi. Sesak rasanya lihat anakku yang sudah lemas, hampir kejang saat itu. Ternyata memang ada miss komunikasi dari pihak administrasi ke poli. Alasannya gak logis dan aneh. Dengan enaknya kaya gitu, rasanya pengen memaki-maki, masa gak ada sistem sih disitu? Gak ada bedanya juga antara pasien bpjs sama umum

Aku sampai nangis, bukan sedih, tapi marah buanget, sampai suamiku berusaha menenangkanku

Sampai rumah, aku jadi heran sama diri sendiri, kenapa aku nggak bisa bersuara saat itu? Wkwkwkwk

Bisa habis petugas di ruangan poli itu kalau aku sudah bersuara, tapi sekali lagi, aku benar-benar menimbang baik tidaknya, untuk angkat bicara di tempat umum

Kini, jtustru sebaliknya dengan suamiku yang people pleaser dan banyak ga enakannya sama orang lain. Aku membuat dia berani berkata tidak; membatasi apa yang tidak sesuai dengan kesanggupan dia, juga berani menyampaikan pendapat dan bersuara

Aku yakin dia tentu lebih tertata rapi bahasanya, karena memang bawaan dia yang calm. Sampai dia pernah dipuji dengan kepala kantor provinsi, kalau public speaking dia sudah sangat bagus. Gak kaya aku🤣

Aku pikir, yang namanya jodoh tentu akan selalu tarik-menarik; saling mengisi; saling menyeimbangkan. Semoga kita semua bersyukur, bahwa pasangan kita memang bagian dari rezeki kita. Tiada manusia tanpa cela, tinggal kita aja bagaimana banyak-banyak melihat kelebihannya, dan berusaha memaklumi kekurangannya, saling bekerjasama, menyelaraskan dalam satu titik menuju jalan yang diridhoi-Nya

Buntok, 2 November 2022 | Pena Imaji

#curhat #rumahtangga #pasangan #memaknai hidup #marriage story #penaimaji

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thecommonraven · 4 years ago

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Why do you think Dylan wanted to be in a open relationship with Marco in season 4? I think you briefly mentioned before that you had some thoughts on that whole situation so I’m curious lol.

How funny that you should ask this right now because for the last week or so I have been actively wondering if i will ever be willing to post gif-sets for the two hallway conversations between Marco and Dylan in Moonlight Desires! I want to make them because i think the scenes are well done and incredibly well acted by both AR and JB but I also don’t want to deal with the obvious hate Dylan is going to get in the tags. The guy gets enough tag hate as it is in posts where he’s being perfectly sweet grade A boyfriend material, so I’m not sure I want to see what’s said on posts featuring his worst behavior.

I’ve mentioned before that I believe Dylan when he says he loves Marco and that he doesn’t think an open relationship changes that in any way. I think it’s absolutely possible for people to be in open or poly relationships where deep feelings are shared an honored. Obviously, I also think that Dylan goes about this all the wrong way, and that probably even if he went about it the right way, it could never work with Marco specifically.

Again, the writers couldn’t seem to decide how much or how little characterization they were going to give Dylan, so some of my thoughts are canon, others are pure headcanon and some more are based off what we know about Paige and the Michalchuk parents and what we can extrapolate from there. We see that Rose and Jeff Michalchuk are parents with incredibly high expectations. Their pride/affection for their kids seems accomplishment based. To me, they read as aloof, imperious, unobservant and largely absent. Paige is petrified at the idea that her mom will need to come into school to talk about what happened with Mr Oleander. She is so clearly freaking out about Banting and wants to talk to her mom while she’s home for Thanksgiving and Rose won’t hardly let her get a word in edgewise. Jeff greets his son (who will soon be moving a hemisphere away) with a HANDSHAKE (HUG YOUR SONs people!) and a comment about how he needs a haircut. The fact that Dylan has literally just had a haircut but obviously not the short ~respectable haircut that Mr Michalchuk would like him to have kind of hammers the dynamic of their relationship home for me. I think the Michalchuk family crest probably reads “get good grades, be a high achiever, and make sure I never get a phone call from your principal. ever.” All of this is to say that while I think Paige and Dylan were allowed a remarkable amount of independence growing up, I do not think they were given much freedom. We don’t see a ton of Dylan in season 4 prior to Moonlight Desires, but I think it’s pretty easy to see the ways that college life effects him. He’s ecstatic and goofy as he moves into the dorms. He and Marco are flirting and dancing in public at a party. He pretty immediately gets that taste of freedom that college can afford him, and then in KoP we see him backlash against having that freedom limited by being kept a secret from Marco’s family. (Again, I do think Dylan goes about this wrong. But also, I will never not be mad at this show for poorly representing the perspective of Dylan/Zane as the person being asked to erase their identity. but again with the “this belongs in a different post”). We see him show up late, and his hair grown long and unkempt, his clothing starts to fit poorly, and the car he “loves more than his sister” is left dirty. We learn in TEotH that after MD, Dylan transfers to a school in Montreal which means two things: he didn’t get drafted in his first year of NHL eligibility and he probably won’t get drafted in his last.

This man is spreading himself too thin and he’s having the best time doing it. He’s drunk on college. He’s drunk on freedom.

Now, unfortunately, Marco somehow gets rolled up in Dylan’s mind as someone who is a restriction on his freedom. Whether that’s because of KoP and not getting to be fully a part of Marco’s life type or restriction or not, idk. Maybe it’s actually that they don’t get to see each other often enough–with student counsel, downtown sasquatch, the blood drive, etc etc for Marco and with wild college life and hockey obligations, how often do these two really get to see one another? He loves Marco and he doesn’t want to break up, but somehow he isn’t feeling completely fulfilled. Maybe it’s that as a 19 year old in 2005, he hasn’t had a lot (maybe any) of long term monogamous gay relationships modeled for him. Maybe it’s that because he doesn’t fit the physical stereotype of a gay man, he feels like he needs to overcorrect somehow and find a way to “match” his identity better (I talk about this a little bit in the addendum on this post). Maybe he just develops a crush on Eric from Psych Class and doesn’t know that crushes outside of your relationship are normal and even healthy, but it doesn’t mean you need/have to act on them. Maybe it just comes down to that he wants to be more sexually creative/experimental than Marco is willing to be, but he doesn’t want to break up over it. I think he and Marco are pretty comfortable joking/teasing about possible flirtations or attractions with other guys (the headcanon about Craig in that linked post, Marco saying that the best thing about playing euchre with Dylan and his hockey team is that he’s playing it with Dylan’s hockey team) and from there Dylan kind of thinks...’just kidding...unless?’

Either way, Marco and Dylan both seem to think their relationship is in a good place where it is ready to take on a new challenge. Dylan thinks they love each other enough that they can successfully navigate opening things without it impacting their feelings for one another. Marco thinks they love each other enough that he can finish high school early and they can move in together. These dummies absolutely love each other, but damn do they need to work on their communication if they are so clearly in two different places like this.

AND SPEAKING OF WORKING ON THEIR COMMUNICATION.

Dylan’s first line of the episode, as he drives Marco to school in that “wash-me”-ass car is “So, you’ll call before you come over for the party?” I know others over the years have taken that line as Dylan trying to keep tabs on Marco so that he can sneak around behind his back, but that’s never how I read that line at all. I think the call is when he plans to talk about opening things up. Maybe he’d already chickened out about having that discussion that very morning (did Marco sleep over at the dorms last night? Or does Dylan leave school just to pick him up and drive him to class?) But while I think that Dylan is potentially having difficulty expressing to Marco what he wants from their relationship, I do not find it believable that this man is actively cheating.

As previously discussed (also in the linked post) Dylan is a bad liar! He smiles too much and avoids eye contact. You just cannot convince me that this man lingering to get 5 more seconds of face time has already hooked up with Eric from Psych Class. Okay, this got incredibly long and went in about a million directions, so I apologize if it only makes sense inside my own ping-pong game of a brain.

#ask #degrassi #degrassi tng #dtng #degrassi season 4 #moonlight desires #marco del rossi #dylan michalchuk #marco/dylan #darco #anon

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lee-jiham · 5 years ago

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Together

Fandom: Until We Meet Again

Ship: Mainly winteam, mentions of pharmdean and poly relationship of manaow, pruk and del

Words: 2751

Type: canon divergent one shot

Notes: very glad I wrote this on Google docs- because tumblr physically ate the post when I first posted it

-limited third person POV focusing on Team-

Team knew what he was doing. Okay that was a lie- but that was besides the point. He at the very least had to pretend he knew in order to avoid embarrassing himself. After all- what guy didn't know how to ask a girl out? He figured, that it may have been easier had he *actually* liked any girls he saw but he couldn't focus on that. He had already made a promise to himself that he wouldn't spend the year alone. Not again. Especially now that Pharm had his boyfriend, and Manaow had her relationship with Pruk and Del. He was tired of being left alone. Sure they made time for him, but he just wished he would have someone else to spend time with as well. Maybe then- he would be happier and less free for Hia to terrorize.

He wasn't sure what was up with Win- but he swore the other made it his personal life mission to fluster him as much as possible. From stealing his clothes in the locker room and making him beg to get them back, to making him practice the longest and when asked why answering with "I just want to spend more time with you" or doing that damn thing with his tongue while staring at him with a deep look in his eyes... It's safe to say that Team was sufficiently flustered. He just didn't know why his Hia was so good at it .

Win had a nice body- that fact no one could deny. But so did Dean- and him just drinking from a water bottle or something like that didn't have the effect that Win did. Team couldn't explain it- but at times he felt weak in the knees for him. Especially because behind the constant teasing, he also saw a softer side of Hia that he, admittedly, wished was only shown to him.

Team was still sure that his senior did it on purpose though. There was no other reason that he would get weak at the knees when Win hugged him close and comforted him after a nightmare. Or he would feel hot under his gaze, or want to kiss him. No- he couldn't feel for things for Hia that he's never felt before for no reason.

But back onto the task on hand. Kop. The two got on fairly well enough. He figured that he could learn to like her if he thought about her as a girlfriend enough. Besides- it was her or that Pam girl who talks to him sometimes as he didn't know any more single girls. Kop was a much better choice. He doubted dating Win's ex would help the torment any.

"Kop? C-can I ask you something?" Team hesitantly muttered out. He felt nervous doing this- that he was doing the wrong thing. At the back of his mind, he swore he even heard his mental voice say something along the lines of 'but what about your Hia?'

"of course Team! Whats up?" Kop answers back, curious as to what was ailing her friend.

"Would," Team took a breath here, somehow plagued with regret, " Would you go to the movies with me? On a date?"

She didn't answer right away, thinking it over, but ultimately agreed. The two planned on going Friday, but they couldn't stay and chat as she had a class to go to.

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Team was sat at a lunch table with Win, Dean, Pharm, Manaow, Pruk and Del. Win had an arm around his shoulder as was per usual with his hia. For once though, he entertained Win and allowed it to happen. He had spent the night at his place after all to calm his nightmares, and he figured he could pay Hia back a little with his burning cheeks.

"Are you coming to Pharm's to study with us on Friday?" Manaow asked Team.

"I can't. I have a date." Team *tried* to say it proudly, but he still couldn't stop that feeling that he made a mistake. Especially when Win turned to look at him with an almost angry look and withdrew his arm.

"Win never mentioned a date?" Dean asked making Team confused

"Why would he know I was going on a date? I never told Win?" Team asked back.

Everyone, but Win, startled his answer.

"but we thought you were dating Win?" Del, from beside Manaow, asked.

"No. We aren't." Practically growled Win as he stomped off, not sparing another glance to Team.

"Hia-" Team tried to say, but he wasn't listening, causing Team to pout. He wanted the teasing to stop- not for Hia to be mad at him. They were still friends after all. He also didn't understand why he had gotten upset.

"what did I say?" Whispered Team to himself.

Team didn't know what the others were thinking- but he could tell you that they were shocked about something. But whether this was caused by his abrupt departure for the fact that Team and Win weren't together is another story.

Something about Team going on a date obviously upset Win. That much was clear to him, but he didn't understand what exactly. It wasn't like Team was cheating on him or anything- they were just friends. unlike what their other friends thought, there had never been anything between them besides Win making him flustered. If there was any feelings there- it was one-sided on Team's part. Or maybe that's what got Win upset. The fact that everyone thought they were together. Team swore he felt his heart crumble slightly at this train of thought but he couldn't dismiss it either.

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A month later, it was clear things had changed for Team. He had been dating Kop, who now spends lunch with them, and successfully avoided Win teasing him. However, in the process of doing so, Win had barely talked to him at all. Team never stayed later for practice at his request anymore, and neither was he talked to unless it was an order to do something. Besides this, he has barely slept. Typically, he'd crawl into Hia's bed but he doesn't feel like it's his place too anymore- not with Win mad at him. So while Team got what he wanted- he also lost something even bigger. He never wanted to lose Hia like this. In fact, right now, he'd break up with Kop if it meant getting his friend back. He cared about both, but his life seemed pointless without Win there. However, he doubted that would help anything. He had to find the root cause of hia's anger.

Kop seemed to sense something was wrong though, so she turned to her boyfriend, "Ai'Team? What's wrong?"

"I had a fight with Hia, but I'm really missing him." Team confessed, not wanting to lie to her.

"Hia? Oh- P'Win. Well- what was the argument about?" Kop softly asked, grabbing onto Team's hand for support.

"I'm not sure really. One minute I was talking about our plans to go on a date, and another he stomped off," Team paused before continuing, not entirely sure it would be polite to go on, "Everyone thought the date was with Hia and I. Maybe that's why he stormed off."

"Team," Kop paused as well, but her purpose seemed to be in thinking over her word choice, "do you think there's a possibility he's upset because he's jealous?"

"Jealous? Of who? He didn't even ask who I was dating before he stormed off."

"What I mean, Team, is that he's jealous because he likes you."

Team froze at her suggestion. In one sense, it seems absurb that Hia could have feelings for him but in another- it made everything else make sense. The glances, the constant need to have an arm around him in some way, the way Win was always trying to be close and flirting with him. He had always brushed it off as a joke, or an extra way to enjoy some *ahem* private time between the two, but he admitted the idea of Win liking him made his heart twirl for lack of a better phrase. He knew that on some level, he wasn't immune to Hia's charms and everything felt *right* with him but he never let it get further than a feeling. He refused to fall for someone that didn't like him back. Though, now thinking about it, he supposed it may be too late. He had already fallen for the other.

-limited third person POV focusing on Kop-

Kop watched him mull things over with a small smile on her face. She did like Team, but she also understood that she wasn't the one for him- or at least not right now. Maybe in the future things would change, but she saw how P'Win and Team had always looked at eachother. This was obvious to everyone which is probably why everyone thought they were dating. Kop certainly knew that she herself had initially thought they were together, and so Team asking her out caught her off guard. Around the campus, it's basically been considered common knowledge that Team and P'Win were both off limits as they were each other's. It certainly never crossed anyone's minds that the two *weren't* together. So with that being said, she was willing to step back and get Team to stop his obliviousness.

-Back to focusing on Team-

"I-" Team started before being interrupted.

"Go get your man Team. It's okay."

Team smiled gently at her quickly before jumping off to search for Win. They needed to sort things out, even if the feelings were one-sided after all. He refused to have Hia mad at him. It felt too horrible for things to continue as they have been.

After roaming around for a bit with zero luck, he figured he would try Hia's dorm. So he drove back and followed the familiar path up to the room. Somehow, though, the path felt different. He felt scared as he initially was when he first went over. He didn't know what to expect from the senior. He only knew that he wanted him back. Arriving, he takes a deep breath and goes to knock but falters at a sound he hears inside. Voices. Hia was with someone. Taking another breath, he finally, albeit shakily, knocked, hoping it wasn't what he thought it was.

Win opened the door, and at the sight of him shirtless, Team ran, away from him and away from the building. Forgetting what he wanted to say to him. It didn't seem worth it at that moment. He would deal with the situation later, but right now he just needed to get away. He heard Win calling after him but he simply ignored him. Shakily collapsing, he called Pharm.

"Ph-Pharm? C-can you c-come p-pick me up?" Team stuttered as he tried to speak through his years.

"Team? What's wrong? Where are you?" Pharm asked over the phone with concern.

"At- the p-park. N-near P-pink milk C-cafe"

"We're on our way. Don't go anywhere" Pharm answered before hanging up.

Team didn't have to ask who the 'we' was. Pharm was most likely with Dean. Maybe, when his tears stopped and he calmed down a little, he could ask about Win. But for now- for now he could nothing but sit and cry. He knew he didn't have all the facts. For all he knew, Win may have been with a family member and nothing had happened. But the possibility that Win could be with someone *like that* still hung around and that felt like a weight was pressing on his heart. Over the months he's known the other, he's never had to deal with the possiblity that Hia wasn't single and though he never realized he would care so much, he really did.

Soonish, he caught sight of Pharm running over and, sure enough, followed by Dean.

"Ph-pharm…" Team managed out breaking down into further sobs.

"We're here Team, it's okay… it's okay." Pharm whispered, crouching down to his level, hugging him

"Team? What happened?" Asked Dean.

Team knew the other was cold to most people but Pharm, but he was still protective over his team mates. So he didn't want to lie and risk worrying him further. He may as well confess.

Taking a deep but shaking breath, Team started, "I- I went over to Hia's to try fix his- his anger at me and- and he had someone over and I just…"

Pharm hugged him further. Pharm then turned to Dean, likely to ask for help.

"Team, listen to us, I'm sure Win didn't do anything with the other. He cares too much about you for him to be with someone else." Dean tried to console him.

There it was again. The idea that Hia liked him. How could he believe it though? How?

All three soon turned their attention to the sounds of heavy footsteps. Win was there, looking frantic. He was followed by a 12 old girl that he knew to be his cousin. Team had met her before, at P'Win's birthday party. Team suddenly felt foolish. He never actually saw who was in the room with Hia. He left too quick.

-POV switching to focusing on Win-

Win was still angry. Still jealous. He wanted to be with Team- not some random person. He was the one Team has slept with- in more than one sense of the word- and embraced time and again. He's the one that has always made Team flustered. He's the one who spends all his time with Team. Most of all though, he was angry at himself for taking his closeness with Team for granted. He figured that despite not officially dating Team, that they still belonged to eachother. However he was wrong. Oh so wrong. He didn't want to deal with the hurt so he left. It was still painful but he figured the pain would at least lessen with time in this choice. But when he saw Team crying- he couldn't help but run after him. He needed to know what was wrong with him.

"Team? What happened? Is he okay?" Win inquired basically all in one breath, clearly upset.

Instead of an answer, Win was greeted with a hug from Team which he wasted zero time in hugging back. For a moment, he forgot Pharm and Dean were there. For a moment, Win forgot that Team had a girlfriend. For a moment, it was just the two of them. It felt right to have Team in his arms- it always did. When Team pulled away though, it was as if he had been shot in the heart by reality. It wasn't just the two of them- and it never was either.

Win closed his eyes briefly before speaking, "Team?"

"I'm sorry Win. I should have- I don't know. I'm sorry. Please don't hate me." Win could see how Team tried not to cry while saying this, and so Win pulled him close again.

"Shhh. Team- I could never hate you," Win whispered in Team's ear, "I love you."

Win felt Team pulling away again and then froze. He shouldn't have said that last part. He shouldn't of-

Team cut off his thoughts by kissing him. Win's brain doesn't short circuit often but when it does- it involves Team. And this was definitely was one of those times. So much so that he didn't kiss back until Team seemed to freeze. Once he kissed back though, Team relaxed again. At this, Win once again forgot about Pharm and Dean. He was in his personal heaven right now. Team was not only kissing him, but doing it in front of people. He knew that this was Team's way of responding- kissing was far easier then saying words. They've definitely kissed enough at this point anyway. However, one concern still remained- Kop. So, reluctantly, Win pulled away but he did leave his forehead resting on Team's.

"What about Kop?" Win muttered, afraid of the answer.

Team lightly shook his head, smiled and then replied with, "She's the one who told me I should go after you. So- um- will you be my boyfriend?"

"Thought that was implied?"

"Good."

" Yeah- good- because all I do is win then."

Team groaned at the pun, and Win was in pure bliss. Everything was how it should be. They were together. He would have to remember to thank Kop later.

#uwmaseries #uwma #until we meet again #winteam #teamwin

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venedik75 · 4 years ago

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NS1955'te başlayan çalışma, temelin atılmasından bir yıldan biraz fazla bir süre sonra rekor bir sürede tamamlandı. Zaman bitiyor. Proje, SSCB Halklarının ilk Spartakiad'lerinin açılış töreni için teslim edilmelidir (1 Ağustos 1956). 31 Temmuz'da, sosyalist rejimler için düzenlenen yüksek spor kitlesinin arifesinde, SSCB ile Çin arasındaki dostane bir toplantı vesilesiyle açıldı (1-0). Çatısız inşa edilen bina, 1980 Olimpiyat Oyunlarının IOC tarafından Moskova'ya verildiği 1972 yılına kadar orijinal görünümünü korudu. Lenine stadyumu daha sonra ciddi değişikliklere uğramak için kapılarını kapattı. Ahşap sıraların bireysel koltuklarla değiştirilmesiyle başlayan stadyumun kapasitesi 100.000 koltuktan 90.000'e çıkarıldı. NS' Muhafaza ayrıca Olimpiyat Oyunlarının açılış ve kapanış törenlerine ev sahipliği yapmak için projektörlerle donatılmıştır. Moskova arenasının ağır bir sırrı saklayan kartpostal yüzü. Soğuk Savaş döneminde kötü işleri susturmanın eski moda bir yolu olan Kremlin'deki yüksek rütbeli kişiler tarafından görmezden gelinen bir hikaye.

OLUMSUZ20 Ekim 1982'deyiz. Kış mevsiminin ilk karı olan buzlu bir rüzgarın sıcaklığı -10 ° 'ye düşürdüğü Moskova'da zaten iyi kurulmuş. Spartak ve Hollanda kulübü Haarlem, bu Sibirya atmosferinde UEFA Kupası 1/16 finalinde karşı karşıya geliyor. Bu vesileyle, 16.000 bilet satıldı. Muhafaza ve polis yetkililerine göre, Merkezin tribünlerine dağılmış kalabalığı yönetmek için çok sayıda personeli harekete geçirmek için çok az. Personel sayısını azaltmak için sadece C tribününün (22.000 kişilik) açılmasına ve tek kapıya erişimin kısıtlanmasına karar verildi. Dramatik sonuçları olan bir seçim. Tribünlerde iki takımın donmuş bir çimenlikte sunduğu gösteriden sıkıldık. Spartak skoru hızla açar ve ardından birçok durumu bozar. B (bir anlamda kop) tribünlerine alışmış genç Spartak taraftarları, can sıkıntısını gidermek ve soğukla savaşmak için kartopu savaşları yapın, bayrak sallayın (SSCB'de yasak olan bir şey) ve polis eskortunu cesaretlendirin. Durum gergin, en şiddetlisi manu-militari'nin muhafazadan çıkarılması. Toplantı sona eriyor. İlk taraftarlar polis kordonuyla çevrili tribünü terk ediyor. Bu, Sergei Schvetsov'un, kural süresinin bitiminden yirmi saniye sonra bahsi ikiye katlama fırsatını değerlendirmek için seçtiği andır. Daha sonra pişmanlık duyduğunu kabul ettiği, suçluluk duygusuyla tüketilen bir hedef. Tribünlerden bir uğultu yükseldi. Seyirciler bir bölümü kaçırdıkları için hüsrana uğradılar, partiye katılmak için geri dönmeye ve muhafazayı yeniden kazanmaya çalışın. Ancak ikincisi, Spartakistlerin ikinci hedefinden sonraki tek çıkışa doğru akan ikinci bir kalkış dalgası tarafından geri itilir. Kapalı kapılara doğru itilen ve çıkışa açılan dar koridorda boğulan, ölümcül sonuç kaçınılmaz görünüyor. Genç bir kız havanın kayganlaştırdığı basamaklara düşer (stadyum yönetimi karla kaplı tribünler gibi basamakları çözmeyi uygun görmedi) ve diğer insanları da beraberinde sürükler. Takip eden taraftar dalgasının baskısı altında, merdivenlerin tırabzanları yol veriyor. İlk travmalar ve ilk kurbanlar. Bu karanlık akşamın resmi basın açıklamasına göre 66 tane var. 1971'de Ibrox'ta olduğu kadar.

Ör, komitenin 20 Ekim 1982 felaketinin anısını desteklemek için 340 ölüm bildirildi. Biz de polisin o günkü tavrına parmak basıyoruz. Holigan olarak tanımlanan gençlerle savaşmaya karar verdiğinde, bu eşsiz çıkışla kendisini eleştirenlere Makyavelist bir tuzak kuracaktı. Ayrıca, acil servislerin müdahalesini mümkün olduğu kadar geciktirecek ve can çekişen bedenleri yerde bırakacaktı. Görgü tanıklarına göre yaralılara yardım 45 dakika sürecek. Muhafaza ayrıca, trajediden etkilenen veya etkilenmeyen herhangi bir dış kişinin erişimini engelleyen bir güvenlik kordonu ile çevrilidir. Elbette bir yargılama var ve stadyum güvenlik müdürünün gulag'a gönderilmesine yol açıyor. Ancak polisin ve dolayısıyla devletin sorumluluğu kurtulur. Özellikle de Olay tamamen örtbas edildi ve yedi yıl sonra, 1989'da, glasnot döneminin ortasında ortaya çıktı. Polisin rolüne dair lanet bir rapor hazırlandı. Ancak tüm bu süre boyunca, spor yoluyla propaganda, gençliğin ruhu ve Spartakiadlar, sosyalist sistemin ihtişamı ve hegemonyasıyla ilgilenen Kremlin ofislerine çok az ilgi gösterdi, ancak yine de Budapeşte ayaklanması (1956) tarafından zaten kararsız kaldı ve itiraz edildi. Prag Baharı (1968) ve Polonya'daki karizmatik lideri Lech Walesa etrafında yakın zamanda ortaya çıkan Solidarność hareketinin oluşumu.

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josjeblogt · 6 years ago

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De wereld draait door

vrijdag 25 januari 2019

Het leven gaat verder

Het wordt weer licht. En buiten klinken vertrouwde geluiden. De buurman start zijn brommer om naar het werk te gaan. Mensen beginnen een dag als alle andere..

De wereld draait door.

Het leven gaat verder. Maar hier binnen in de slaapkamer staat onze wereld stil.

Ivo heeft die ochtend al vroeg de huisarts gebeld. Gevraagd om een middeltje om de paniek de kop in te drukken. De arts die ons gisteren het nieuws vertelde staat op de voicemail. Ze vertelt dat ze onze huisarts gesproken heeft en alles door heeft gezet naar het AvL.

We staan op, Ivo heeft een bakje Skyr gegeten, ik trek dat niet en zonder te ontbijten (zelfs zonder koffie) gaan we naar de apotheek.

We doen daarna boodschappen, als in een waas gooien we dingen in het karretje. Waar hebben we trek in? Wat willen we eten? Nou... eigenlijk nergens in. Eigenlijk niks.

Maar dat kan niet. We moeten.

We moeten sterk blijven en dat doe je niet door niet te eten.

Eenmaal thuis eten we. Omdat het moet. Het smaakt nergens naar. En ook de koffie drink ik tegen heug en meug op.

We bijten door. Uur voor uur, minuut voor minuut.

Ik licht mijn vrijwilligerswerk in en ook de uitgeverij waar ik daags vóór “doomsday” zo enthousiast vandaan was gekomen met een contract op zak, in de wetenschap dat zij mijn eerste boek willen uitgeven, schrijf ik dat ik op dit moment niet verder kan met het uitgeef-proces, alle aandacht moet nu gaan naar wat écht belangrijk is. Naar ons, naar mijn man. Naar onze honden.

Ivo belt de zorgverzekering en mag, wonderbaarlijk genoeg, zijn polis opschalen naar een hogere dekking.

Zodat we straks minder kosten hoeven te maken voor de behandeling, het vervoer en alles dat we nu nog niet weten over de dingen die in de aankomende maanden gaan komen. We zijn blij verrast, dat er iets ‘meezit’, hoe klein dan ook.

Hulp

Ik bedenk me ineens dat ik een Facebook vriendin heb, die darmkanker heeft gehad. En op aanraden van Ivo stuur ik haar een berichtje, of ze tijd heeft om me even aan te horen. Dat heeft ze.

En ze vertelt me haar verhaal. Ook zij heeft jaren met de tumor gelopen voordat die werd ontdekt. Ook aambei-behandelingen, ook overduidelijk en nog zonder uitslag van het biopt de diagnose; darmkanker.

Ivo vraagt of hij vrienden met haar mag worden en dat mag. Ze chatten een poosje.En zij geeft ons HOOP! Positief denken is 50 % van de genezing. Zij heeft dit allemaal overleeft, ondanks vele uitzaaiingen in de lymfeklieren! Zij is inmiddels alweer vier jaar “schoon”!

Het kan dus. Darmkanker overleven. Zelfs met uitzaaiingen.

Ze vertelt Ivo over de behandelingen die ze gehad heeft. Wijst hem op praktische zaken als het aanvragen van zittend ziekenvervoer bij de verzekeraar. Ivo en zij kletsen een hele poos. Het helpt enorm. Ze is een zeer directe vrouw, nuchter en positief. Ze verandert iets, in de manier waarop Ivo en ik denken. Ivo begint de effecten van de oxazepam te voelen, de paniek is meer naar de achtergrond.

Ikzelf blijf maar ‘lekken’, de tranen blijven komen en ik laat t maar. Blijkbaar moet dit er nu uit.

Mijn Fb vriendin die ‘darmkanker-overleefster’ is, schrijft me dat ze dag en nacht voor ons klaar zal staan. Ik weet even niet zo goed hoe om te gaan met zoveel liefde en meeleven.

Ik bedank haar en schrijf, dat wanneer alles achter de rug is en Ivo weer net zo schoon is als zij, we een feest geven waar zij bij zal zijn. “Afgesproken”, schrijft ze, “dan neem ik deo en badschuim mee voor een nog schoner resultaat.”

Tranen van het lachen en het huilen mixen zich op mijn wangen. En dat mag. Kan me niet schelen dat ik even niet zo ‘schoon’ ben. Als Ivo maar schoon wordt, want daar gaan we voor.

Naar de huisarts

Die middag zitten we samen bij de huisarts. Ook hij is geschrokken en weet niet waarom er niet eerder door Helder Klinieken aan de bel is getrokken voor verder onderzoek.

Hij vertelt me dat ik net als Ivo best een oxazepam mag nemen, paniek is nu niet goed voor ons beiden.

Hij legt uit dat er tegenwoordig veel kan, dat er vele manieren zijn waarop darmkanker kan worden genezen.

Hij is het met ons eens dat de dagen tot aan het onderzoek in het AvL leven is tussen hoop en vrees. Niet wetende waar we aan toe zijn, wat er precies aan de hand is.

Niet wetende of en welke behandelingen zullen moeten worden gedaan, niet wetende hoe we hier samen gaan uitkomen. De dokter adviseert ons onze routine weer op te proberen te pakken voor zover dat gaat. Omdat ruimte en routine rust en zekerheid geven die we in deze tijd zo nodig hebben. Manlief laat zijn werk weten maandag weer terug te komen (mits dat goed gaat) en met een side-kick naast hem die in kan stappen en over kan nemen wanneer Ivo dat even niet meer kan. We rijden naar huis en ik bel met mijn ‘reservepappa’, die me acht jaar geleden heel goed geholpen heeft nadat mijn moeder overleed (aan een bloedprop in haar darmen).

Ivo wordt ondertussen lid van een website op internet, kanker.nl heet het. Hij gaat een blog aanmaken waarin hij zijn gedachten kan ordenen, zijn ervaringen kan delen met lotgenoten.

Ook ik besluit te gaan schrijven. En zet de eerste letters van dit verhaal op papier. Mijn zoon komt langs. We houden elkaar goed vast en hij biedt aan voor ons te koken.

We besluiten samen pas komende zondag als mijn dochter hier is, haar te vertellen wat er aan de hand is.Het geeft ontzettend veel troost dat hij bij ons is. Ik ben blij dat hij (sinds kort) heel dichtbij ons woont.

Hulp

De leidinggevende van Ivo weet veel van gezondheid en de combinatie tussen ziekte en dieet. Hij stelt voor dat we naar een keto-dieet overstappen. Geen suikers meer en geen koolhydraten. De afgelopen maanden aten we koolhydraat arm. Maar we gaan dus nog strenger voor onszelf zijn. Op dit moment pakken we alles aan.

De baas van Ivo gaat een voedingsschema maken.

Ikzelf ben al jaren lid van stichting Mediwiet. En er zijn vele verhalen waar kankerpatiënten die door chemo’s gaan, baat hebben bij wietolie. Toevallig heb ik dat al in huis.

Dus mochten er chemo behandelingen komen, dan kunnen we ook de wietolie gaan inzetten. We veranderen onze leefwijze naar nog gezonder om sterker aan de strijd te beginnen wanneer we eenmaal alle onderzoeken achter de rug zijn.

En we gaan er voor.

Inmiddels weten we iets langer dan 24 uur dat Ivo kanker heeft. Ongelofelijk. We zetten stappen in wat we wel en wat we niet willen, hoe we om willen gaan met de komende onzekere dagen, hoe we mensen om ons heen ons willen laten steunen.

Blijkbaar gaat de wereld toch door.

Mijn schrijvers-aspiraties gaan voorlopig de ijskast in. Ik ga me richten op de behandeling en herstel van mijn man.

#blog #positiviteit #kanker

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melih-asik · 8 years ago

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PETEK

Onu, yani Meclis Darbe Komisyonu Başkanı Reşat Petek’i yıllardır çıktığı açık oturumlardan tanıyoruz. İktidarın ve Cemaat yargısının yılmaz savunucusuydu. Milletvekilliği ile ödüllendirildi. Komisyon başkanı yapıldı. Komisyonun yarım yamalak raporunu açıklarken araya bir makbuz sıkıştırdı. Sözde Fethullah Gülen 1967 yılında CHP’ye 5 bin liralık yardımda bulunmuştu. Makbuzun sahte olduğu açıklandı. Üstelik 67’den bu yana 50 yıl geçmiş. Oysa kendisinin son birkaç yıl içinde Fethullah Gülen’e düzdüğü övgüler youtube’da duruyor. Sadece onun değil nice iktidar mensubunun övgüsü de internette var. Sen onları bırak, 1967 tarihli sahte makbuzla CHP’yi mahkum etmeye çalış... Akıl alır gibi değil.

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